hello 2016

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my new year weekend was very nice.

today is the first day back to work and lo and behold, my car wouldn’t start so i could not go.  bummer deal dude.  by the time i got a jump start, it was already too late.  let’s hope for a better tomorrow, then, shall we?

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the bf and i decided to take a drive up to the snow, which is really only about a half hour away, but then we thought, hey, let’s have lunch in Tahoe… not much further… then we thought, hey, let’s spend the night in Reno, et voila… it happened.  great!

 

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wish i’d’ve tried the Bakon Mary, but i had the build-your-own bloody mary bar instead because i’ve always wanted to try that… but they had no meat available on that. wasn’t actually hungry anyway, since we’d just had the breakfast brunch buffet.  yum!

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i used to live in reno and i really liked it there.

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bf’s go-to is capt’n & coke.  mine is wine, but on special occasions i love bloodys.  i’m just not into vodka and hard alcohol doesn’t work well for me, it causes me to have unpredictable weird emotions.

 

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mine was pretty good, tho.  i’m an amateur bartender!

 

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#silverlegacy  nice automatic hashtag insert into photo.  everyone takes their pic in this giant chair.

 

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this was actual new year’s eve… we went out to one of my favorite mexican joints…. yum yum yummo!

bah, i am going to start doing at least 25 squats per day plus at least 40 arm weights per day, i am too old to eat fun foods.

 

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people aren’t always perfectly photogenic and sometimes you can’t capture their best essence with dumb old timed photos.  i am extremely attracted to my boyfriend, but i am sure he would hate this pic.  of course, i look kind of dumb, too…(not saying he does) . but it’s kinda candid.  whatever.

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he humors me. he is ten years older and totally not into the whole social media thing whatsoever.

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on a walk with doggie. he is a big baby and prefers to be carried. he’s sweet, tho.

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view from our room when we first got to reno.

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in an unusual twist of circumstances, this day i had awakened at about 3AM, no longer felt sleepy and decided not to go back to bed, so needless to say, by the time we got to the casino, i was not in the right frame of mind to go down and brave the new years weekend crowd. ugh. we tried and it was just too much for me.  went back to the room to watch ghost adventures and rest after a lovely dinner at the Sterling restaurant.

 

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i ate tons of bread because bf can’t (gluten intolerant) plus it took like an hour for our stupid food to come. this is why i hate restaurants. they are outlandishly expensive and you have to wait for billions of years to get your food and often the food isn’t that great, tbh.

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this salad, for instance? came with bf’s meal. are you serious?  it’s ridiculous. like, cute presentation of one bite of iceberg lettuce with one tiny square of romaine to trick you into thinking it’s romaine? what is this, burger king?  come on.

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his burger was $30 come on.  are you kidding me? it came with about four potatoes worth of fries and three pieces of bacon and a whole bunch of toppings on a separate plate.  but i could buy so much amazing ground beef for that price and make some killer burgers in a lot less than an hour, let me tell you.  i know, all i do is focus on the negative… but the alternative is to be a totally delusional airhead, if you ask me.  two dollars for three slices of bacon and two dollars for a slice of fricking cheese.  i hate restaurants. haha

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because i am a cheapskate, i just ordered an app.  $16 for this. escargot. very garlicky, which is good. also way too salty, which is an amateur chef move…. allow the guest to determine the salt level of their own food, thanks.  i only ate a few bites, dipped some bread in the yummy sauce and took the rest in a container.  i heated some up and ate it with other stuff last night, it wasn’t bad … especially with some lemon juice (which they did not offer as an accompaniment in the restaurant).  when you are charging such exhorbitant prices for food, the service should be top-frickin-notch.  lame. service is rarely acceptable for me, either.  i suck. haha

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that’s his burger under the bacon medallion… do you SEE how many fries come with?  get real.  haha. of course, i gladly took them back to the room for later munching.

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anyway, yes. it was a great time, i am grateful and i really need to start exercising… omg. fatty bomb-battykins!!!!!!

 

love ya!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

 

 

jolly holiday

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so… here i am, sitting in my livingroom. thought you might like to see it.

been sitting around in my living room a lot lately, what with my being on vacation and all.

too much time on my hands.

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playing video games such as cooking fever and looking way too much at the internet… some cooking, some cleaning, some bonding with my doggie. yes, i still have halloween decorations up. i do that.  i like those scaredy cats.

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here, i did up my eyes.  not bad, eh? time for a glamour shot then.

today, i will paint my nails midnight blue for the new years theme. also i will eat the rest of my ravioli and then do something with some chicken breasts. marinate them in lemon and cayenne and garlic, yeah, that’s it.

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blurry arty shot.  i like it.

so… how was your christmas? mine kinda sucked? i guess i celebrated early and then skipped the real deal which isn’t really real anyway, so c’est la vie.  commercialism materialism pressure stress insanity… i just do whatever i end up doing and accept it at that.  still enjoy myself.  even if i’m miserable for moments.

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this pic is too purplish pink.  i was subbing for a bike repair class. it was oddly somewhat stressful. last day before vacation.

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fun with laundry times fam.

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sometimes i clean up after people instead of making them do it.  seems easier?  it’s the motherly instinct.

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i don’t like this shirt anymore.  it needs to be belted  but i don’t want to belt it.  poofs out on my belly like a preggo.

is this all of my pics?

check my twitter or instagram.

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there are the last pics i uploaded to the internet.

yes, i’ve been feeling overwhelmed with life.
i’m exploring what it means to be me.
who am i?
what am i?

can i be me?

the things about me that i think other people should notice and value and appreciate… i have to emphasize those things. these things are subtle. things that only certain individuals even have the capacity to value and appreciate.

how can i communicate who i am? express myself?

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hey man

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hi!
long time no blog, eh? i know, right!?!?!?

whatever!
i can’t get it together enough to blog on the reg.
but here i am now!

 

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so the holidays are upon us. wow. i’m on vacation and it’s going to whiz by. i know it. before you know it i’ll be back to work again. but in the meantime, i am trying to make good use of the flexibility of schedule.

i moved all my furniture around today and i’m feeling more creative.

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i drew this yesterday and today i am going to do another drawing.

 

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hope you’re having a nice week!! ttys(omeday)

years fly

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Hi. It’s been ages.

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The holidays are once again upon us.
Are you excited?

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Sorry for falling way behind on blogging.
Stuff happs.

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I have been busy with eating my feelings.
You?

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Would you like anything?
🍕🍖🍝🍗🍟🍤🍣🍔🍳🍭🍫🍮🍬

Idk, trying to be quippy.

My blog has simply sat too long without
An update.
You know how it goes.

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Blogging might be making a resurgence tho, so get ready!

i’m a model, you know what i mean?

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okay well since my last blog post things have been happening I never did go to that show that I was worrying about and now there’s another one coming up this Saturday

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I’m hoping for the best. at least this time it’s going to be in a situation that isn’t a meat market-y dance club type bar thing. this time it’s going to be outdoors at some kind of shopping mall event of some sort and it’ll be during the day, which is nice. –in Santa Rosa, California– so pretty much the Bay Area wine country and hopefully we’ll go have a nice meal and maybe do some wine tasting afterward, who knows? I have a pretty good feeling about it.

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it’ll be nice to get out of town and just do something a little bit different. will be leaving at 6 a.m. on Saturday which is crazy but also good. I’m a morning person so it works for me.

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It’s weird being forty-something! i feel so old! I want to feel younger but that requires me doing stuff about it and i feel too old to! Like, having energy!

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This hot weather could go away, that would help. It drains me. also the area where I live is beginning to have too many people and traffic going anywhere is a nightmare, parking lots are a nightmare, lines in stores are a nightmare and it makes me always just want to go straight home after work because stopping anywhere is a major inconvenience.

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I do the best I can.

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so now I’m home from work sitting in my apartment and I really don’t want to go anywhere because traffic is hellacious right now and it will be for like the next three hours… my body is exhausted by the end of a school day of me standing up. some classes are worse than others because the kids, as soon as you sit down- they immediately get off task, so that means you have to spend the whole day just walking around the room

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so I’ll probably just watch a couple episodes of The Waltons until my boyfriend gets off work and comes over to visit for a couple of hours.

all day and all night

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It’s saturday, once again.
I wake up and it’s already time to surrender. Choices constantly present themselves. How will i spend the next 3.5 hours before heading over to watch one of bf’s bands rehearse for their show tomorrow!

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I’m nervous because I am an introvert, so i normally would avoid being in social situations… They are never preferred for me.

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The best way for me to get thru and around that is to be a documentarian. Take pics and maybe a couple vids. They usually rehearse for 3 hours. That’s a long frickin time. I’m considering going in my own car in case i feel the need to leave. Hate feeling stuck somewhere.

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So, first i guess coffee is in order, right? And im gonna curl my hair this morning. Haven’t really done that in a while. Never have been able to locate my curlers, i’ve looked everywhere. So i’ll have to use the hot iron.

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I am also invited to the gig tomorrow, about which my feelings are mixed, as well. I am truly not a party person. I’ve tried lying to myself about being one, but i am a loner. Crowds? Not my thing. Especially not this kind of crowd. Sigh.

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But WOOHOO! I’m excited!!
😆 If by excitement you mean nervous, apprehensive dread. 😯 If it were a concert-in-the-park, i’d be less apprehensive. This place is more like a weird sort of bar where kids are somehow allowed because it pretends to be a restaurant kinda thing. To me it’s a thinly veiled meat market for middle-aged swingers. 😀

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Bf’s band is the opening act, and after the probably three hours of that, he says he is interested in sticking around to check out the main act. Ughhhh. Torture for me. I’m sorry to be negative but it’s stuff like this that makes me question the prospect for longevity in our pairing. I want to be supportive… But… I literally have zero interest in the venue, the people there or the main act whatsoever. It wont be like a date, believe me. Uh-oh. Ha.

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