Who says I don’t have a life? I play the Sims! haha 😀
Oh, my birthday is actually tomorrow, btw.
It will be a simple lunch and then dessert. Just my mom and my daughter and myself. (that is, if my mom doesn’t suddenly have to do Jury Duty, which she thinks actually might happen, all of a sudden! fer real)
ok, well get ready because this post is gonna be a doozy!
Last night I did my first full tarot spread reading in a while. It’s been years, I think. I used to own three decks and then I didn’t have any for a long time. I bought one a couple of months ago and was only doing 3-card readings with it, until last night.
those shorts don’t fit me right. I got rid of them. They were bothering me for a while and finally, I was like… okay. done. I also got rid of that flowery shift thing. It just isn’t me. My half sister, Kathryn, gave it to me and said not to get rid of it but I did. I don’t need to hold onto it in case some day I see her and give it back. Nah.
Okay, so this is the center part of the reading from last night. A lot can be said about this.
[The Sun] Recently, I started a New Life, looking for Clarity & Simplicity.
I moved from a more congested, rat-race-y area where the traffic is horrible, up into the foothills in a beautiful, historic gold mining town. This is an improvement.
[Jack of Spades] Currently, I am in a state of Caution but looking at the Potential of the situation. And possibly looking at a near future of Abundance (even excess?) and a period of Selfishness [9 Hearts].
[7 Hearts] My Conscious Outlook is one of Secrets, Imagination & New Feelings.
[3 Clubs] Lying beneath the surface (Subconscious) “The Uncertainty in Beliefs Card. Blessed with mental agility, the Three of Clubs can apply their fantastic mind to just about any endeavor. They are gifted writers, teachers, inventors, computer programmers and performing artists—any profession where they can express their words and ideas.”
Also, this can mean “Efforts Rewarded. Success”
The cards which follow add to the story these cards tell.
I honestly feel like this reading really is about me and describes my situation well.
So the Distant Past and Future are Major Arcana, which means they are a certainty or could also represent a person. Both Kings in this case (men? father figures?). King of Clubs is The Magician and King of Spades is The Emperor. These relate to their accompanying cards, so…
My Past situation was The Sun and The Magician. So Skill & Transformation along with a New Life of Clarity & Simplicity. I think that makes sense for my life.
My Future holds a period of Abundance & Selfishness culminating in Wisdom, Experience and Authority as represented by The Emperor.
Next we have my Hopes and Fears surrounding all of this.
Fears [King of Hearts] How to channel my Sensitivity & Creativity into professional success, which has held me back in the past. (True!)
Hopes [Queen of Diamonds] To bring harmony of Internal & External in order to master but not control nature.
and even after all this work I have done to present this reading to my Instagram Stories and on my blog, someone will still go, “So what do you think this all means?”
Well. It means I should use my energy to persist and keep moving beyond sorrow and learning to understand my own feelings. It all makes sense to me, and I guess that is the most important thing.