and it always seems that something is me.
omg sometimes i just get SOOOOOOOOOO tired of day after day after day of living
it’s like, REALLY?!
i feel like i’ve been alive for too long.
someone kill me? jk
but srsly, life is a struggle for everyone and if it’s not a struggle for you, then i hope you are out there helping other people because i don’t know anyone for whom it isn’t a struggle. it’s called ‘impermanence’… sickness, old age and death come to us all. YAY! right? but nobody wants to talk about that. we all want to be POSITIVE and HAPPY-GO-LUCKY at ALL TIMES!
guess what, tho!? actually, if you were happy all the time, you wouldn’t really be growing.
you know that, right?
who needs to grow?
humanity needs to grow. we have far too much misery and injustice on this planet. it’s not right.
anyway, i’ve never been a very joyful, exuberant person and that’s okay.
i have had the opportunity to work with many differently-abled humans and i love them! i am also differently-abled and that is fine. we aren’t all the same. it’s biology and DNA.
what matters to you matters to you and what matters to someone else may not be the same thing. really that doesn’t even have to show up on your radar.
i’ve had an unpaid vacation because i am a substitute teacher and there’s no school for almost three weeks over Christmas and New Year. Lame for me. I’ve been looking for a part-time job to cover these unpaid vacations because even though i consider this seasonal employment, the state disagrees with me. that’s fine. i don’t mind looking for supplemental work. it’s interesting, actually. i’ve been putting in my applications and submitting my resumes. it gets old just hanging around in my apartment and it’s been raining constantly. dark, grey days for days.
my nails are so ratchet. gold star! rawr!
not sure if you know this about me but i am pretty antisocial. i have often wondered if i am on the autism spectrum because i just really don’t care to have social interactions much, it just seems awkward, forced and uncomf for me, always. frequently i have little interest in what other people are talking about and my mind just starts wandering to observing the things around me and thinking my own thoughts. it’s exhausting for me to stay focused on other people they just seem so boring! for the most part. occasionally i do find a person who interests me… but we are talking about there are less than ten EVER that i’ve known.
here is some kind of snack i had last week.
anyway, by this time in my life, i am starting to not even care that i don’t like other people and socializing and all that crap! WHO CARES?! sick of trying to be like everyone else. they can tell that i am not. may as well just go with it.
jalapeno cheddar bagel with an egg.
anyway, it’s gonna be back to work for me soon. that’s good. it’s good for me. i am grateful.
so, do i have a new year resolution?
Practice Good Self Care!
a year ago, i signed up to influenster probably because i saw someone post on instagram that they got some free samples and i thought, hey, why not.
then i basically went an entire year without paying one bit of attention to the site or the app or anything having to do with influenster.
then i noticed a few emails saying, “you’re on the short list for an upcoming voxbox” but since i rarely checked my email and didn’t have it synced to my phone, i was already too late. finally, this November, after I got a new phone, i decided i should probably go ahead and sync up my email and i actually received the notification in time to receive my very first voxbox!
The Tasty Vox Box is for foodies. Usually, Influenster voxboxes are makeup and stuff, but hey, free food is my favorite! Look at all this awesomeness! Just in time for Turkey Day. Yeah! and free! Country Crock, Yogi Tea, Weight Watchers Smart Made Meals, Splenda, French’s Crispy Jalapenos and my favorite Frank’s Red Hot sauce!
i’ve been blogging for a long time, basically since 2003… and along the way i’ve seen many bloggers take advantage of the opportunity to try out free products in exchange for promoting them via their online presence. i never thought i’d have such an opportunity but it seems as though WOM (word-of-mouth marketing) has become more common now that pretty much everyone has an online presence.
My mom and I shared these Yogi tasty tea samples Thanksgiving morning. Quite enjoyable. I love how they have little tea fortunes on each bag.
This Kashi GOLean Dark Cocoa Power protein shake was really delicious. Not too sweet, I thoroughly enjoyed the smoothie I made with it, to which I added a frozen banana and some forzen blueberries plus some quinoa milk. Healthy!
I have to say, I’m not really a Splenda fan, but my mom really was glad to take these off my hands! She is a Splenda enthusiast!
just me playing around on snapchat. i digress. (seasnail73 add me!)
still waiting for that, tho!
here is a video i made about my free country crock sample.
i must say, i’ve had way more fun than anyone probably should promoting all of these brands, but hey! if it’s fun, it’s fun!
i have become obsessed with reviewing products on the influenster app! you should try it, too and get free products to sample and review yourself! follow my link and add yourself!
Dude. blogging is not fun.
i’m sorry, but if you don’t have a desktop computer in your home, then forget about it!
my tablet doesn’t make it easy. it’s not easy to transfer photos from my phone to the blog and it’s not easy to type on phones. someone needs to invent something better.
if you’re not in a happy mood you can’t blog correctly. neither can you blog correctly whilst sitting in a library and feeling like you just want to leave.
and why can’t i embed instagram photos here? it won’t let me. doesn’t work properly.
so anyway, yay! complaining! everyone loves to hear complaints, right?
but yeah, if you are so inclined, you are welcomed to peruse my archives. there’s lots of history therein.
look at all these sims watching tv in that tiny cramped room! haha
i’m easily amused.
well, hi there! long time, no see, eh?
yep. so, it’s summer, which means i have a lot of available free time. this is lovely. i am trying to use it to catch up on things i never seem to have time for when i’m working every day… even tho my job allows me to frequently be home by 3:30pm, there are other things that have to be done like bill paying, family time, laundry etc which fill up the days and then boom! so much gets left undone. various doctor’s appointments for checking up and maintaining physical health, for one thing. visiting the doctor is rarely an efficient process…. you get fifteen minutes and maybe two issues can be addressed per visit… then referrals are made, new appointments, etc, blah… gotta be done oh yeah and where do we fit exercise in with all of this? sheesh. we are all too busy. fact.
also i’ve got a trip planned to fly back to missouri to visit my son and his family. that’s great to look forward to. planning travel isn’t always a breeze either due coordinating to everyone’s schedules with trips to and from the airport– things like that… life is full of negotiations.
stuck this lime water in the freezer in a styrofoam cup and when i took it out the cup had burst from the water expansion during ice formation so i peeled the styrofoam off, et voila! cool, eh? literally.
so, dudes…. one of my theories (which these days everyone’s thoughts belong to everyone, it seems) is that smart phones have been developed to control and limit human interaction… nobody likes to talk irl, face to face or even on the phone anymore… we all want all of our shit to be via the screen, typing, etc… and that takes a way a lot of the valuable aspects of social/human interaction such as facial micro-expressions, voice intonations, movement, spontaneity, etc. one of the deterrents to talking on the phone is how it heats up your phone, makes your ear sweat, bad connections make people’s words get cut out/off and it all seems rather a nuisance. and then when you are talking on your smartphone you can’t also be looking at it so it prevents us from the constant ADHD multi-tasking which also prevents us from one of humanity’s main defining traits which is SPECIALIZATION. it’s all a conspiracy, bro look out!
had a great camping trip on my birthday (43) and have been making an effort to get out to the river often… i live within walking distance and feel guilty for being a hermit. for a while there the 100 degree temps every day kept me from venturing out much but we’re in more humane heat range this week. whew
this was a tasty treat which i will never again eat.
just had to try it but that stuff is pure poison, i’m sure….. gnome sayin’?
a snapchat lens.
this really doesn’t look like me at all. it reminds me of a few people, tho… some famous, some not… and speaking of conspiracies…. the snapchat thing is just a way to monitor and catalogue people too. facial recognition, location surveillance, all of it big brother and scary af. i’m aware of it
they try to twist it around to make it seem like i am the perpetrator and it’s all so totally nutso and sickening.
well we will have to do this again soon but i gotta motor!
catch ya lates, brozowskis
during spring break, i started playing Sims FreePlay
do you like his afro?
this is a neighbor. she isn’t really seeing either of these guys.
three have a hobby of cooking. the third is into fishing.
he didn’t have a chair he wanted to sit in, i guess….
typical guy never knew there was even a problem. heheh
looks like a problem, tho… hm…
she is practicing her cooking skills.